Saturday, April 4, 2015

Who Am I Without You?- Part 13

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I knew what happiness was because I was living it. Bolu would pick me up every Friday night after work and we would have dinner at his place. The more we got to know each other the more we fell in love. The funniest part about my life at that moment was the fact that my Ex-husband kept warning me to stay off Bolu.

“I can just fire him and end everything so easily.” Bolu said to me as we were on our way back after our afternoon together. I didn’t know what was wrong with me. I couldn’t let go of the other Bolu so easily. It’s not that I was still in love with him but he was still the father of my child. If he loses everything, my son will suffer as he grows up. I couldn’t voice my fear to Bolu about him not accepting my son as his own someday. I was scared that he would wake up one morning and realize that he can no longer take care of a woman and her child who isn’t even his. I was treading towards the part of happiness but I had my child in my mind taunting me always.

“Is there another way to solve this?” I asked him. He looked at me as if I was out of my mind.

“Lola, what are you saying? I thought you would agree to this?”

“I know… I know. It’s just that… well…” I was finding it hard to speak. “Well what?” he asked.

“Can we not talk about this right now? I really had a nice time, and I don’t want to ruin it.” We drove to my house in silence. I knew if I should share my thoughts with him, he would think I don’t trust him.
When we got to my house, nobody needed to tell me to get out of the car. I was about to close the car door when he said, “So no goodbye from you?” I closed the door and kept walking towards my house. I heard him call name but I wasn’t going to turn back.

“If you go into that house, that’s it for us!” he yelled. Why am I so stubborn? Because it’s the only way I’ve learned to live. When I can’t handle a situation, I rather shut it down forever. But when I heard him say “That’s it for us,” I almost turned around but I’m the kind to take risks whatever that is. In a blink of an eye, strong hands were pulling backwards.

“Why are you always like this? You’re angry all the time. We’re meant to argue because nothing is ever perfect. And I’m not going to go along with everything you say but that doesn’t mean you give up.”

“Bolu, it’s just that I’m scared.” I could hear my voice shaking.

 “Do you trust me?” He asked raising my jaw as his lips pressed against mine.

“Lola!” A familiar voice blared. We quickly pulled back as soon as I heard my mother’s voice. To my surprise, she asked in her most friendly tone, “Are you not going to invite your friend for dinner?” she eyed Bolu’s car. “Why leave such a fine young man outside without welcoming him in?” she walked closer to Bolu. “My son, I know you must be hungry.”

“Mama!” I protested. I didn’t want to be rude in front of Bolu but I knew her schemes.

“Good evening ma, I was just on my way home maybe another time.” I was so angry that I rushed into the house, leaving him with my mother. I heard Bolu’s car pull off a few seconds later. “Lola who is he? Is he the owner of that car?” my mother asked behind me. When I opened the door to our living room, the sight that welcomed me left me breathless.

“Mama! Mama!” I screamed in fear. Kate was lying on the floor out cold. I rushed to my knees, raising up her lifeless body next to mine.

“Kate, please open your eyes!” I pleaded, slapping her face gently to get a response. My mother rushed in just in time but when she saw me with my dying sister, she was horror stricken. I called for my mother but she wasn’t responding either.

“Mummy!” I heard my son call out to me from of nowhere. That was the last thing I expected. He doesn’t need to see this. What do I do now?

“Dare, stay where you are. Don’t come out okay? Mummy will be with you soon.” I could hear the light sound of his footsteps as he made his way forward.

“Dare, I said stay…” Too late, there was nothing I could do to shade him from this horror. He began to cry. “Is Aunty Kate alright?” he asked as he closed his eyes. My mother and son were in shock, and Kate was not breathing.

I spoke as calm as I could to not alarm him. I was relieved when I saw him turn around to his room.
“You stupid girl! What have you done to yourself?” I quickly pulled out my phone from my back pocket and dialed Bolu’s number.

He answered after the second ring. “Bolu, please come back to the house…My sister… something happened… she’s not breathing.”

In less than five minutes, he was with me. We quickly got Kate into his car. My mother who stood glued to the door still wasn’t responding. We had no time to talk. I managed to get her into the car along with us. My mother finally regained her composure when we got to the hospital. When she saw the nurse’s roll Kate in, she began to weep. She kept asking me what I did to Kate.

“What do you mean?” I asked her.

“We don’t have time from this, Lola. Someone’s life is at stake. ”Bolu stated. My mother grabbed a hold on my shirt asking me what I did to my own sister. Has she lost her mind? It was sick to hear that she would think I would harm my own sister!

“I knew you never liked her so this is how you’re going to finish her for me?” It took a couple of nurse’s to get her off me. Bolu had gone in with the doctor.

“Doctor, what is wrong with my daughter!” my mother yelled as soon as she got into Kate’s hospital room. Bolu and I simply backed away to give her some space. “Madam, maybe we should talk about this in my office.” the doctor offered. My mother insisted he spoke to her right there.

“Well after all our tests, we found some abortion pills in your daughter’s system. She took more than was required and what we have here is the result of her body responding to the attack.”

“We are still trying to totally flush the drugs out of her system.” He continued. “Now do you know why she might have done that?” he asked my mom curiously. My mother looked at him as if the doctor didn’t understand his job description.

“Abortion? Doctor what are you talking about? Kate was never pregnant talk-less of abortion.” She said to him. “Madam…” She didn’t let the doctor finish, she turned to me saying, “Tell him that our Kate was never pregnant, where is he getting this from?”

I came to stand close to my mother because she seemed like she would lose it in any seconds. The news was too much for her. Then out of nowhere she asked the doctor, “I hope you were able to remove that thing from her?” The doctor looked at her repulsively and said, “Well since the abortion process didn’t fully take place, I’m sorry to say, the baby is very much still healthy.” My mother fainted.

“Mama!” I screamed just in time to catch her falling body. 


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