Saturday, April 4, 2015

Who Am I Without You?- Part 14

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The event of yesterday was still fresh in my head as I got dressed to join my mother in the hospital. After she fainted, Bolu took me home to get Dare and we spent the night at his place. I wasn’t too happy with the arrangement. I felt it was too soon to start sleeping over especially with my son along, but I couldn’t stay alone with Dare in our house that night. I tried sleeping because I needed to be up early to visit them but I just couldn’t close my eyes. I had so many thoughts running through my head. I was still unable to get over the fact that my mother thought at first that I had a hand in whatever was wrong with Kate. Above all, I felt like a burden to Bolu the whole day. Yesterday, I knew he had a business meeting he was heading to before I called him for help. I had gotten Dare’s school uniform on our way to Bolu’s place. I dressed him up this morning and we were ready to go out when Ada, Bolu’s house help called out to me.

“Madam, Oga told me to make you something this morning that you will be going to the hospital. Also I made something for junior too.” she smiled down at Dare. I couldn’t thank her enough. I grabbed the food and gave the girl a big hug.

Two hours later, I was back at the hospital. 

“Hello Lola.” A familiar voice called out to me, halting my movement. I turned around and it was Bolu, the other Bolu. I couldn’t find a reason for why he would be at the hospital at that time. My guess was maybe his wife was in labor. I felt a big blow of jealousy hit me. I could almost taste the bitterness in my mouth.

“Wipe that look off your face, it doesn’t fit you.” He said as he came closer.

“What are you doing here?” I asked wearily.

“Your mother asked me to come.” He answered.

“My what? And why would she do that?”

“Stop asking me silly questions. Isn’t it obvious why I’m here?” He asked. “I don’t think your new boyfriend is as generous as people claim he is if not your mother wouldn’t have called me begging for me to help her fund Kate’s hospital bills.” Oh no she didn’t!

But as if what he just said hadn’t fazed me, I said to him, “Oh, okay. Thank you, but I will take it from here.” I turned to leave.

“Lola, how could you not have been this smart? If you had been smart enough to bring up the idea of abortion when you got pregnant with Dare, we wouldn’t have been stuck in this our situation.” He stated. I didn’t know I had this much anger in me. I didn’t know how or when I slapped him.

“How dare you?!” I asked him. “How can you speak about having Dare aborted? Did you never want the child?”

“Lola, you slapped me?” he asked baffled at my show of courage.

“And I would do it again without giving it a second thought.”

“I see your new boyfriend has turned you into something else. Lola, you raised your filthy hands and slapped me?!” Although my feet were shaking, I could not back out now.

“And I would do it again!”

“Who the hell do you think you are? Do you understand the rubbish you just said?” My mother instincts kicked in. “How will I explain to your son that his father never wanted him?” He shrugged his shoulder in an I-don’t-care fashion. I felt so helpless. Did he only stay with me all these years just to save his own face?

“It’s clear to me that your sister, Kate is the only sane person in your family. She knew what she had to do…” I couldn’t help it, I slapped him again. This time I made sure it really echoed in my own ears. The nurses began to pay more attention to what was going on with us. They began to panic because they all saw the anger in Bolu’s eyes that I ignored.

“Don’t ever open your mouth to talk about my sister or my family!” I yelled. “I can see you’re really allowing the devil to use you.”

“Lola, we’re not through! Come back here!” he demanded as I walked away. "I'm not through with you! Your family would be nothing without me. You, you would be nowhere, nothing without me today." He boosted.

“Oh, we’ve been through for the longest!” I screamed back at him. “Shameless man!” I hissed.

“What’s all that commotion I heard?” my mother asked me as I opened the door to Kate’s hospital room. “Mama you called Bolu?” I descended on her.

“You didn’t even ask about the man who drove us here, he was the one who saved Kate’s life not Bolu!” I yelled. This time, I wasn’t going to allow her mention a word.

“Mama, for common twenty thousand naira, you sold me out again to him.” I couldn’t hold my tears in. “Did I say we couldn’t afford it? What’s your business with Bolu, tell me na, what’s our business with him?”

“What has come over you? Do you realize I’m still your mother?”

“Well it’s time you start acting like one!” I refused to let her have this moment. It was seriously time for us to let everything out.

“I’m so sick and tired of you trying to control me! Who am I to you?”

“You want to beat me abi?” she asked. “Come and beat me ‘O’ since you’ve grown larger wings.”

“Why are my feelings always the last thing you think about? Why mama? Why do you hate me so much?” I asked pacing around the little hospital room.

“Why won’t I hate you after you encouraged my only child to take abortion pills that almost took her life?” And as if she had gave out a secret, she quickly drew closer to me and held my hands.

“Wait, did I just hear you say only child?” I asked. She used her hands to cover my mouth, preventing me from finishing my words.

“Mom! Did you seriously just refer to Kate as your only child?” This time she was shaking, she couldn’t speak.

“Lola, it was a slip of the tongue.” She lied.

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Thank you guys for always reading,